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I thought last night would be the night you’d call. I thought we would talk everything out and you’d tell me everything is going to be okay. I thought you would finally want to understand me. I thought you’d apologize for giving up on us… I thought you would come to the realization that all I needed was to be understood. I thought until 2am actually… staring at my phone waiting for the screen to light up. I thought about you… have you thought about me at all? Probably not. I’ve been haunted by our routine and life feels so empty without you. I lost a friend. To be honest, I’m doing better but some days I feel so sick to my stomach thinking that this was just all a lie for you. You fooled me. I was stupid to believe I found the one just to be in another cycle of crying myself to sleep while rereading old text hoping that I’m wrong. I wish you had come talk to me instead of everyone else in your life — especially people that weren’t rooting for us. I wish your pride and ego didn’t have so much control over you to dismiss me in such a confusing manner. I just want my brain to shut up.
I thought our love was strong enough. I thought we would be okay. I thought I meant more to you… I thought you would choose US.
I was wrong.
Despite being wrong, I know I deserve proper communication and genuine effort. This just all sucks. Change sucks. Relationships suck. People suck. I know I…
